I know what people think of me. Why wouldn't I know? Every time I ask, i get the same answer. Well, almost.
Cold.
Fierce.
Vicious.
Angry.
Stern.
Serious.
They may use different words but the overall meaning is still the same = I'm not a likable person. And even when I expect this answer from people, I'd be lying if I said it didn't hurt just a little. Granted, most would usually have a different opinion after getting to know me, but still Ouch!
I'm not vicious, i want to tell them. You just don't know me well enough.
I'm not cold, i want to say. I just need a little time to warm up to people.
I'm not mean, i try to explain. Why don't we talk a little so you can see for yourself?
But what's the use of explaining? First impressions are first impressions. That's what they see, and that's what I probably am. Honestly, I don't know why I keep asking. Maybe deep down I kinda hope I'd get a different answer. Maybe I hope there's someone out there who sees me for who I really am regardless of how I look on the outset.
Maybe i hope too much.
Sigh~
p/s: Someone once said I was fierce just from watching me play low-quality basketball. So I'm posting a video of that, and you be the judge (Btw, I'm the tall girl in black who's scoring most of the goals *gloats*)
p/s: i can already sense some mean comments coming my way. hehehe.
8 comments:
Izyan.. you rock girl!
izyan u tall bully!
Thank u anonymous1 for the kind comment. Thank u anonymous2 for proving my gut feelings correct.
I watched the video again and this is what i realized:
1. Low quality basketball means everyone crowds to the ball like ants to a sugar-cube (yes, me included).
2. Everyone claps when other people make a goal, but not when i do. It's either they don't like me, or I make too many goals that it was a bit redundant to celebrate each time (I like the second theory better).
3. I guess I was probably, kinda, a bit of a bully (I should have been more relaxed on defense and maybe concede a goal or two for the other team. After all, they were trying their best).
4. I am a very lazy player. No running. No dribbling. No attempt to do anything other than stand there and wait for the ball to come to me. ugh.
5. This isn't a very flattering video of me. maybe i should take it down.
hmmmmmm.... =_='
izzy~
clap clap clap!!!
Hehehe.. thank u thank u *bows*
ni bila ni?
honestly i can't remember. I think sometime masa sy 3rd med? possibly.
my first impression when i met you in person (after a almost half a decade later): gila manga.
the next impression when i read ur blog, lagi gila blogging! :P
and even if my impression of you is 'gila' @ mad, all the best people are ;)
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