Crass

I was in a foul mood all day. I didn't mean to be.

But it's really hard to break out of a cycle of anger once you've committed yourself into it. All day long i snapped at random people for no reason. I needed an outlet to vent my frustrations and to be honest, random people were as good as any. (and some not so random people - sorry friends unfortunate enough to cross path with me today!)

It's tiring really, being angry. As opposed to being happy.

And when this realization hits me; when it became clear how being angry had only been a completely unnecessary waste of energy on my part, i was already drained of my life essence. It wasn't going to change the situation i was in. It wasn't going to make me feel better. In fact, the only thing it did was create a cruddy circle of anger involving other people. And this circle gets bigger and bigger and bigger and eventually, everyone is angry and unhappy.

So why be angry in the first place? When all i needed to do was shrug it off and be cool about it.

Next time, I'm just gonna smile and get on with life.
Because there is always a better alternative to anger - like hot chocolate, ice cream and being sweet.

Right?


*update*: I'm hortlisted for 3 job interviews next week. Bismillah.

Who is?

She craved a presence beside her, solid. Fingertips light at the nape of her neck and a voice meeting hers in the dark. Someone who would wait with an umbrella to walk her home in the rain, and smile like sunshine when he saw her coming. Who would dance with her on her balcony, keep his promises and know her secrets, and make a tiny world wherever he was, with just her and his arms and his whisper and her trust. 

Hell yeah!! You're doing it right Laini! =)