Ghost

Our lives our so intertwined, so meshed together so intricately, that it is extremely hard to simply let go. In the house i live him, i see him. On the bed i sleep in, i see him. In each of my daughters, i see him. Places we use to frequent, the mosque we used to go to, the mango shake stall we used to get our iced mango fix. Everywhere; everything, reminds me of him.

So it hasn't been easy. 

Some people tell me time will heal. 

But it has been years, so why is he still haunting me? 

Cruella D'Evil

Maybe it's because i have always been surrounded by beautiful, honest, kind people my whole life that I cannot imagine anyone being evil. I always think people are inherently nice, and if they weren't, it is only because they sometimes stray into the darkness due to unavoidable circumstances for which they always manage to crawl out of, God permit.

Well, i think that no longer.

Some people are actually downright evil, with hearts so black, no light can pass through. They scheme, and they lie, and they slander as if it is second nature to them, without the slightest bit of shame or remorse. Their dark, black, devious hearts feeding their big inflated ego into a spiral of profound immorality and wickedness, breaking relationships and igniting hatred along the way.

I choose however, to stand on higher moral ground. To disregard the existence of this evil and not let their repulsive tentacles touch the light force I've built around my loved ones and I. I will take an attitude of deliberation, of forbearance, in this time of Fitnah. To exercise Sab'r, in these times of tribulation. And i pray, and i pray and i pray. For He is the best of protectors.

''O Allah, continue to guide us and keep us protected. Ameen.''