stardust

Recently, I've been a little worried about my heart. It keeps wavering for reasons unexplained. The mention of a name, a thoughtful gesture, a couple of text messages, some meaningless words, a lingering smile.... mundane everyday things that shouldn't really catch my attention, but does.

Grrr, how annoying.

If only i weren't born with all this silly girly feelings, i wouldn't be in this mess i'm in. I wouldn't have to avert my eyes when we speak, i wouldn't have to walk around pretending like i don't see you, i wouldn't have to avoid you for fear of my weak wavering heart breaking into small crystal pieces, spilling out it's contents for the whole world to gawk at and ridicule.

If only my heart was just a tad bit stronger that it is.
Oh heart, please stop wavering~

Life plans.

This isn't exactly how I imagined it. But one thing I've learned about life, is that it rarely goes according to plan. Well my plan that is. Allah's plans, that's a whole different story.

Am i a control freak? I rarely think so. But when things get out of hand, i freak. Which basically means the same thing, no?

And here's the reason for my freaking out:

Izzy's Life Plans 

(conjured up when she was 15 and still naive)

-Ace my SPM and fly overseas (Checked!)

-Great at cooking by 20 (Failed)

-Meet my dream guy by 22 (Huh? What guy??)

- Engaged at 23 (EPIC FAILURE)

-Married by 24 (SUPER EPIC FAILURE)

-A doctor by 25 (still on track. Phew~)

-First kid by 26 (haha, this sounds like a bad joke now)

There, so you know why i'm freaking out right?? I mean, like any girl, i dream of the perfect man. I have never once imagine becoming a spinster, but at the rate i'm going it seems like a very probable possibility (gulp!)

Laugh with me

Humor is a funny thing (hah! a paradox!).

Anyway. It's funny because it's never quite the same for everyone. I find that to tickle my funny bone takes a little bit more effort than the average jane, because the brand of humor I keep seeing nowadays is relatively unimaginative and dumb. Dumb humor, though in most part may be able to cash in the money, is just... well... stupid. And I'm really sorry to say this but i'm not a big fan of stupid.

So really, if you're thinking about what makes me laugh my guts out, it's humor with a little sprinkling of wit. Or at the very least, humor with some play of words. Those, i find both entertaining and hilarious.

I rest my case.