Heartbroken.

Well, it's officially over. My love affair with V has finally come to a bitter end. I guess it had been long coming. I had managed to ignore the tell-tale signs of it for most of the time i was with V. I paid no attention when he rejected my internet calls. I ignored his blatant act of blocking anything coming from my country. I always had some sort of secret way to get hold of him, which i did rather persistently. You could say i was clingy for his attention, but insensitive of his feelings.

And to make matters worst, I had been drunkenly and incessantly taking anything and everything from him for well over a month. I used to think it was only appropriate that he should be the one doing all the giving, since he is after all the 'man' of the relationship. It's the law of chivalry. Like holding the door open for a lady. It should be second nature for any honorable man. Or so i thought.

It seems that chivalry has lost its novelty a few centuries ago. And my ignorance of the modern day workings of the male's mind has cost me my love. I don't blame him really; a sensible person would have dumped me on the first date. But V was patient. He tolerated my selfishness for quite a bit.

That was of cos, until patience started to turn to annoyance. I had forced him out of sleep, just one too many times. I'm not even sure which timezone he's used to, nor did i really care to find out. I was on a high. I used him to my heart's desire, never once thinking of how he felt. My selfishness knew no boundary. I was happy, he was not. And things started to get very sour between us.

The last couple of days had been especially rough. He got a restraining order against me. It says quite clearly on my screen as "invalid VEOH file". A piece of my fragile heart breaks everytime i see it. But i don't give up easily. I call him. I beg him. I fall on my knees crying for him to notice me.

USELESS.

He's had enough of me and my constant 'taking', i'm sure.

Hurt. Sad. Heartbroken. Miserable.
I've learned my lesson, painful as it is.
So now it's time to let go.

Sayonara my dear VEOH~
May you find all the happiness i was unable to give you~