Self affirmation ritual

Warning: This is a ego-massaging post.

I was talking to Simon a couple of mornings ago, and somehow we ended up talking about Mr Lang. Simon was saying how this particular surgeon had bludgeoned people to death in the ENT viva (oral) exams last year. 

"Oh," i commented. "He was my examiner in the exam and i thought he wasn't all that bad. In fact, i thought he was pretty cool."

Simon didn't look impress. "Well, he failed a lot of people last year. And he didn't follow any format to the exams, just sort of went his own way with it. And he gave inappropriate comments like 'are u sure u're a medical student?' or 'you should quit med school' etc etc."

'Hmmmm..... But i passed easily enough, and to think English isn't even my first language," I almost said but didn't. I mean, no one likes a gloat! And with that, the conversation drifted into a different topic, like conversations normally do.

Anyway, now that i think about it, I suppose it's easy to downplay the difficulties of things from the past - all those horrible exams you've gone through and managed to come out of alive.

Examples:
UPSR? Didn't bat an eyelid.
SPM? piece of cake.
International Baccalaureate? No big deal.
First to fourth Med? Easiest exams in the world.

But the truth is this --> http://izyandex.blogspot.com/2010/04/ent.html 

Now to be honest, 4th year wasn't exactly a good academic year for me. My results weren't exactly bad, but they're nothing to brag about. And so, i never bragged about it (even to my siblings - which was unusual!!). And because i was disappointed with my overall performance i never really paid attention to what i got. I just sort of glanced at my results, noted that i didn't fail any subject and put it at the back of my head, never to be looked at again.

But after that little conversation with Simon, i became curious. What exactly did i get again? I can't remember. So i rummaged through my pile of important letters looking for last year's exam slip and found my answer. Hahaha, i actually got honors for ENT! HONORS baby!! How in the world could i not have celebrated that little victory? Oh well, even though it's a year too late now, but i'm still gonna give myself a good hard congratulatory pat on the back. *pat pat pat*

Izzy to self: "You're awesome, Girl! I wish i were you. Wait a sec, i am you!"

MUAHAHAHAH

-izzy in crazy mode-
Countdown to finals: 2 days.

p/s: okay, now that my massive ego is properly massaged, i'm ready for my finals!! come what may!