Jaded

For some reason, writing doesn't feel so refreshing anymore. It doesn't give me the adrenaline rush i used to get every time I start typing on my old keyboard. I don't get that giddy feeling of satisfaction i used to get when i finish writing a piece.

I believe all the boring academic reports I've been forced to write has distorted my writing style and left me crippled as an aspiring writer. I've become very inclined to start my sentences with "according to a recent study by Izzy et al" even when there's no study by Izzy and friends at all in the cochrane database. A few hundred hours of caffeine-tinted sleepless nights can do that to you. Nightmares about crazy people in institution is no big help either.

And thus, writing has become a tiring process for the simple reason that it's no longer fun.

I used to take roughly an hour to write one decent post when I'm in a happy mood, much faster when I'm upset or angry. Nowadays i take way longer. Words just don't seem to come to me like magic anymore. Instead, they dissipate into a misty oblivion before i could conjure them up completely.

I'm giving lame excuses.

Please bear with me.

I whine when I'm tired.

p/s: Thank u Mr M for helping me with my case report (yeah i might've, kinda, probably tricked you into it, but you eagerly said yes when i asked so i'm thinking you were happy to lend a hand, right??)