A chunk-ful of disappointments

This was supposed to be a very big a moment for me as a blogger. This was supposed to be my 100th entry; my final entry; my big farewell entry - the entry where i would make my big announcement; the entry where i would tell the world that I'm leaving Blogspot for good; the entry where i summarize all the good times and bad of this turbulent year.

This was supposed to be the entry where i get to give that little heartfelt speech of appreciation to all those accidental passer-by for kindly coming around to read my writings. To thank them for dropping in on those odd days where i let my fingers dance on the keyboard - intricately spinning some gossamer tales of life; or those quiet nights where i pour my heart out in little meaningless concoction of words to the beat of the music playing in the background.

This entry was supposed to be all that (and more)...

......but it isn't.

My brazen dream of a big teary farewell has been crushed to smithereens by the simple hard knocks of technology. (i'm typing this with just the slightest hint of exasperation. Why make things so hard for normal people like me? Grrrr.)

Have i lost my touch?

I probably have.

But i have no intentions of stopping. Hardly.
I'm merely doing what any good girl would do. I'm following my heart. I'm gliding along on that sweet breeze of change blowing through my window, while i toy with that nasty urge to dip my toes in unfamiliar waters (yet again).

You see, there's something wickedly exciting about trying out something new. It's the same kind of adrenaline rush you get when you cycle down a steep hill with no hands on the handle bar~ And in that split second just before you drop flat on you face, you feel this satisfying glow of greatness bursting in your heart.

But only for a second!

For you then fall (rather ungracefully) to the ground, and all those fake feelings come crashing on you like a big hungry, tsunami wave. And you realize (too late), that you should have just stick to what was safe.

I hope it's not too late for me. I may have gotten on the bike, but luckily i still have my hands clasp firmly on the handle bar.

So yes i did plan on moving to a new err... host?, or whatever it is they call that thing where they let you blog for free (plan dropped) and i did plan on changing the layout (also dropped). Right now i'm just too tired to care. I'll stick to what i'm used to - writing. I'll let all the geeks of the world handle the geeky stuff.

And if i ever babble about moving again, or making this blog private, or changing the layout, you have permission to give me a good smack on the head and get me back to my senses.

Gosh, I'm so bad at all this technology thingy, it's a miracle i have this blog in the first place. Thank goodness for small wonders. Heh. =__='


p/s: I'm dying to get my hands on a good book right now. Anyone has any suggestions? (And please please don't recommend any chick lits, they're not my thing)