Shoot me in the head pls!

2MB3 OSCE exam, March 14 2008 - I blew it!! BIG TIME!!

All i remember from this morning's OSCE was one big mess of a show.

It's a complete mystery how i can do everything to perfection when I'm practicing at home but just as i start with the real OSCE, my mind goes totally blank. Yup, I'm the idiot who forgot to do an observation on the patient before proceeding with the GIT examination. I'm also the dimwit who suddenly remembered that she'd forgotten her inspection and foolishly asked to have a look at the patient again, after thanking the patient and telling her that everything was A-okay. So yeah, i probably failed that station.

And yes, i was also the stupid med student who got tongue-tied when the guy at the respiratory section suddenly asked about lung cancer, after encouraging him to express any concerns that he had. Stupid Stupid Stupid!!!! All i really had to do was reassure him; but NOOOOO, i only stared at him with my jaw wide open - utterly speechless!!!... How idiotic could i be???? Arggghhhh... So yeah, i probably fu*cked up that station too.

The fundoscopy section wasn't any better either. I completely forgot my lines, my technique was hideously wrong and i was so nervous doing the test in front of GerFla, the super doctor, that my words became so jumbled up, they were just incomprehensible to the human ear. So that's 3 stations I've failed so far.

Now, if i can still count properly, 3 failures out of 5 is a definitive confirmation that I'm going to be a lousy doctor. [that's assuming I'll even make it to graduation 3 years from now]

Arghhhh, just kill me this instant and end my misery. (=_=)